This is the first Australian film that I absolutely fell in love with, I remember I was 19 in 2008 when it first came out, I was so infatuated with the trailer and was on a desperate search to see the film, I went to this amazing little store right by my home at the time called movie art decor (my sister now lives right by there, unfortunately assumably because of the influx of films readily available online they are no longer in business. I found myself drawn to the film whether it be because not so un commonly as a pretty typical 19 year old girl I had a love of runway models and Gemma Ward was the pinacle of the mid 2000 runway model. With her beautiful long blonde hair, doll like features, and natural Australian charm she was everything I could ever aspire to be, effortlessly perfect. I sat in my third floor bedroom at the time painted a light purple with big lead windows and a large window seat crowded with french vogues I couldn't read because of my inability to grasp foreign languages, watching this film almost solely because of my adoration of the blonde beauty. The film itself ended up being a fascinating portrayal of a family in turmoil, and how ultimately love whether it be the love of family or young love has a way of displaying the silver lining in even the darkest of clouds. I think this film was hard for me to watch at times because although I aspired to be the effortlessly flawless, charming and sweet character portrayed by ward, the reality of my life was that the reality of the situation was that I secretly felt much more alike to Charlie the autistic brother portrayed wonderfully by Luke Ford. At a time when most young people were out partying, in college and just discovering themselves I was hidden away in my bedroom watching Australian films (my favourite at the time) and looking at other peoples social media profiles wishing my life was as effortlessly wonderful.
I had just finished highschool a good year or so later than everyone else I knew, and after 4 different high schools and a terrible stint at a boarding school that I now know was awful for my mental health I had lost basically all my friends and was forced to live a life in the shadows of my bedroom rarely going out with the couple of friends I had, watching films with my cat and idolizing people I would never meet in real life, whilst most people my age were frollicking in Europe or just living a more socially connected life I became a bit of a hermit. I felt let down by the world for not being genically blessed despite luckily enough having a thin size 0 frame my face was what I felt to be the bane of my existence. I perfected photos trying to look presentable online so as to show people that didn't accept me that I was worthy of love and affection, I was dealing with the dissolution of my parents marriage at the time and basically a loss of everything I knew to be true and real, my friends and neighbours from the age of 4, my parents, marriage amongst all of this I thought I was in love or at least like for the first time with someone whom I thought was a trusted friend but ended up to be no more than a socipathic aquaintance with no intentions other than that of cruelty. So my mental state
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